To start with, I will present my full Scythe’s Song plan in a chronological order style:
Title: Mortis Nostrae (Our Death)
Summary: This will be the SS-verse rewrite of DMC. I plan to make it a lot more serious, and remove some of the silliness of the film to make it darker. I like to call it the Game of Thrones treatment. The story will largely remain the same, but there will be a lot of extension and expansion on it, and some modifications. Rating will be Mature (ff.net)/Explicit (Archive).
Characters: All the normal characters of DMC will be featured. Sparrabeth is obviously the pairing.
Verse/Time Period: SS and POTC era.
Imagery: I really want this to be like an impending doom, but also very curious and exciting tone… so a lot of dark tension and other kinds of tension (sexual).
Title: Et Vita Nostra (Then Our Life)
Summary: This will be the SS-verse rewrite of AWE. This story will be massively modified (many of the same things will happen, just in different ways and in a slightly different order.) Rating will be Mature (ff.net)/Explicit (Archive).
Characters: All of the normal AWE characters, but I plan to add Anamaria to the mix. Again, Sparrabeth.
Verse/Time Period: SS and POTC era.
Imagery: This one will be very dark for the first half. A lot of pain imagery, depression, anxiety, guilt…but also a lot of mystery and sort of thriller-ish aspect. For the second half, it will get into a more exciting territory, with forgiveness and budding relationships built in.
Summary: This will be the sequel to Scythe’s Song. I want to take this one a little more ancient. Out of the city, into tombs, ruins, caves, that kind of thing. I am thinking like…Africa, maybe some South America…we’ll see. Certainly dealing with more ancient history/mythical material. Rating will be Mature (ff.net)/Explicit (Archive).
Characters: All of the modern day SS characters, assuming they all survive SS. I will also be adding a return character from the POTC era which will remain a surprise.
Verse/Time Period: SS, and modern day.
Imagery: This one will be very mystery/puzzle…think Tomb Raider, Uncharted, The Mummy…that sort of mystery adventure.
Title: Untitled Crossover Intermission Project
Summary: I can’t reveal too much about this yet, but I plan to do a short little series (4-8 chapters) that will take place in between SS and its sequel. Rating will probably remain on the M/T side.
Characters: Again, the full cast of SS if they all survive. And a bonus character or two.
Verse/Time Period: SS, and modern day.
Imagery: Very competitive, very sarcastic, and very smart.
Title: Untitled Jack the Ripper Series
Summary: I have always been fascinated with Jack the Ripper, and I loved the idea of writing about him/her. So, I decided to write a short series within the SS-verse about the famous serial killer. It will just be a 7-8 chapter adventure with Jack and Lizzie as they stumble upon clues/leads to his/her identity. I am not sure whether I will use official theories, or if I will make up my own theory. Rating will be Mature (ff.net)/Explicit (Archive).
Characters: Jack/Lizzie and various OC’s
Verse/Time Period: 1920’s
Imagery: Gritty London atmosphere.
Title: One Shot Collection
Summary: This is a planned collection of one shots which will cover a lot of the events mentioned in SS (past events), and will also include little moments after SS, but before the sequel (holidays, dates, other moments). I thought it would be fun to write little snapshots.
Verse/Time Period: Various
*Note that you can submit requests for this collection. I can’t guarantee that I will accept them all, but I will happily read and consider them.
That’s it for the Scythe’s Song plan.
These next stories will most likely remain stand-alone stories without sequels (but that can, of course, change any time).
Title: Cold Heart
Summary: This is a story that involves Lizzie jumping overboard the Pearl during AWE a week or so after they rescue Jack. Panic ensues, rescue ensues, and caring for ensues.
Characters: Regular AWE cast.
Verse/Time Period: AWE
Imagery: I want this to be a very…deep story…and I also want it to be very exploratory as far as their tension and dynamic.
Summary: This is a story that will involve Jack and Lizzie getting together shortly after AWE (the Willabeth never happened), and then Jack dies in a ship battle. A few weeks after his death, Lizzie starts noticing strange occurrences around her house. Things moving, noises, smells. She starts to wonder…
Characters: Jack/Lizzie/Various other POTC characters
Verse/Time Period: Post-AWE
Imagery: Very mysterious, very investigative, and also a lot of elements of tragedy, loss, hope, and other various themes.
Title: Under The Sun’s Shadow
Summary: THIS is going to be a bit of a larger undertaking. I am taking Jack and Elizabeth back to Ancient Egypt. I will be writing a slightly different iteration of the characters, but they will still be recognizable. Jack will be an Egyptian Pharoah, and Lizzie will be a runaway from Greece.
(As a person who has studied Ancient Egypt for a long time, I am aware of the various customs/politics/cultural themes/other rules. I am also very aware of which of these I am going to have to ignore to make this story work.)
Characters: Jack (Egyptian name pending), and Lizzie (Iset), with various other OC’s
Verse/Time Period: Ancient Egypt
Imagery: Egypt-y things
Title: Thin Walls
Summary: PORN WITH PLOT KIND OF. This is going to be a story set in DMC during the Isla Cruces voyage (which will be extended for the sake of this story) where Jack and Lizzie hear some interesting activities coming from the other’s cabin. They eventually confront each other.
Verse/Time Period: DMC
Imagery: PORN, PORN, and some more PORN. Tasteful, though.
Title: Change In The Wind
Summary: Since I love taking the original stories and going in a different direction…this will be a story about what would have happened if Jack had actually kidnapped Lizzie during his escape in Curse.
Verse/Time Period: Curse
Title: A Swan’s Flight
Summary: Again, this one also goes in a different direction, but from the very beginning of Curse. Lizzie runs away to Tortuga, meets Jack, and adventure/romance ensues.
Verse/Time Period: Curse
Title: As The Snow Falls
Summary: This one is going to be Christmas-time story. It will take place in the 90’s in London. It will be a Fountain of Youth AU, similar to SS. Lizzie will be at a memorial for WWII, and she will discover that one of the captains of the British Navy looks mysteriously like Jack. Then, as she is walking out of the building, she sees a very familiar figure heading to his car.
Characters: Jack/Lizzie/Various OC’s
Verse/Time Period: 90’s
Imagery: Very Christmasy. Lots of lights, snow, and other Christmas elements.
Title: A Different Tale
Summary: Another steer in a different direction. This story explores what would happen if Jack had been made Pirate King instead of Lizzie.
Characters: AWE characters.
Verse/Time Period: AWE
Summary: This story takes place while Lizzie is in Tortuga looking for Jack. She sees a sight of…oral nature, and becomes very curious and fascinated. And since she is about to embark on a voyage with Jack Sparrow, who better to have her curiosities focused on?
Characters: Jack/Lizzie/Various POTC characters
Verse/Time Period: DMC
Title: Loveth and C’rruption
Summary: This one will either be set during the Isla Cruces Voyage, of after AWE. Haven’t decided yet. Anyway, Lizzie goes to Jack to learn more about sex, and gets a more practical demonstration than she bargained for.
Verse/Time Period: To Be Decided
Title: In The Arms of Angels
Summary: I got the idea for this one while watching Lucifer. Basically, Jack kills himself after the events of AWE (slightly modified for this story), and after finding him, Lizzie does the same. They end up in Heaven together (I am not necessarily aiming for a ‘religion’ angle here, I just like the imagery, and some interesting things happen.
Characters: Jack/Lizzie/Various POTC characters
Verse/Time Period: Post-AWE
Title: Death Hast Cometh
Summary: This one takes place during the end of Curse. Lizzie isn’t allowed to witness Jack’s hanging, and is later told that it was successful. Revelations and adventure ensue.
Characters: Jack/Lizzie/Various POTC characters
Verse/Time Period: During Curse/Post Curse
Title: Pirate In The Cupboard
Summary: Oook, this one is a little bit more comedic. I actually got this idea while watching Indian in the Cupboard. If you haven’t seen that movie, basically it involves a kid named Omri receiving this cupboard for his birthday. The cupboard can turn action figures into real beings. When you put a human figure inside of the cupboard, it actually plucks a real person from their own timeline to bring them to yours.
So, what if I were to write a story starring me (well, not me, but a person inspired by me) with my own cupboard, and my own Jack/Lizzie figures? And what if they were plucked from right when she chains Jack to the mast? Essentially it will be about a Mini-Lizzie and a Mini-Jack coming to terms with what Lizzie just did while being hella confused with why the fuck I am so big, why they are so small, and where in the fuck they are.
First, I am going to post a general FAQ that summarizes all of the things people are generally w r o n g about with regards to the case. Everything posted here is a fact. FACT. Nothing that I am about to include in this FAQ is speculation. I have not made anything up. With a short Google search, you can verify all of this information yourself.
Please refer to IFOD’s web page or the rest of my blog post for more detailed information.
No. Johnny Depp did not pay Amber Heard any money to “stay quiet”. All of the money she received in the divorce was from the divorce. She was entitled to a portion of his earnings that he made during the time they were married, as mandated by California divorce law.
Did Amber Heard sit for her deposition?
Yes, but only after refusing to sit for several.
Did Amber Heard donate all of the money?
According to her.
Did Amber Heard give Johnny Depp an extortion letter?
Yes. Samantha Spector, on behalf of Amber Heard, sent Johnny Depp’s legal team a letter in which they demanded that Johnny pay Heard 50k a month in spousal support, provide her with a Range Rover, pay her legal fees, and provide her with three condos. If Johnny did not agree to these terms, Spector said that they would take the issue to the public eye.
Did Amber Heard leak evidence to the media?
Yes. She sold photos to People Magazine when the abuse accusations came out.
Did Amber Heard hire a criminal defense lawyer?
Yes. As soon as Johnny provided his evidence list to the court, she hired a criminal defense lawyer.
Does Johnny Depp have a history of domestic violence?
No. He has never been arrested, accused, or suspected of domestic violence in the past.
Was there an abuse case?
Yes. Amber Heard filed for a temporary restraining order, and eventually claimed abuse in the divorce papers.
Was there a divorce case?
Did Amber Heard claim abuse right away?
No. Originally, she listed irreconcilable differences as the reason for the divorce.
Did Johnny Depp file counter evidence in 2016?
Yes. He submitted his version of events that directly contradicted Heard’s version of the events, and his version claimed that she abused him.
What did Amber Heard win in the divorce?
She didn’t “win” anything. She was given a percentage of Depp’s earnings because under California divorce law, without a prenup, she was entitled to it.
Did Amber Heard break the NDA?
Yes. Many times. She mentioned Johnny in several magazine articles, and has been acting as a victim from day one.
Is Johnny Depp sick?
Can women be violent?
Did Amber Heard get a restraining order?
She was granted a temporary restraining order.
Was she denied a permanent restraining order?
Yes, and she then dropped the request with prejudice.
Is Amber Heard a violent person?
Yes. She has admitted to physically abusing Johnny Depp and was arrested for hitting her ex-wife.
Did Amber Heard hit Tasya Van Ree?
Yes. It was witnessed by a police officer in a Seattle airport.
Did Johnny Depp speak to the media during the divorce?
Only once, with an official statement given by Laura Wasser.
Did Amber Heard leave Johnny Depp?
No. Johnny Depp left her.
Did Amber Heard provide hard evidence of abuse?
No. When asked to provide digital copies of the photographs, she refused. She did not have any other hard evidence to submit.
Did Amber Heard file a police report?
Not right away, apparently at the advice of her lawyer.
Did the police see any sign of abuse?
No. Police stated that they did not see any damage on the property, or on Heard. They left a business card for her stating that she may contact them at any time if she has more to say.
Did Amber Heard submit the text messages into evidence?
No, nor did she list Stephen Deuters as a witness.
Did Johnny Depp continue to ‘torment’ Amber Heard?
No. He has not tormented Amber Heard in any way, ever.
Did Johnny Depp suffer abuse from the media?
Is Johnny Depp an alcoholic?
He has admitted in the past that he has a problem with alcohol.
Did Amber Heard look into the finances of the Hollywood Vampires?
Did Johnny Depp’s previous partners defend him?
Yes. Vanessa Paradis, Winona Ryder in particular defended him.
Was there any evidence of him being abusive during the relationship?
No. Heard could not provide any evidence to show that he was abusive.
Can fans defend him without bias?
Does his acting talent matter in regards to the abuse case?
Did Amber Heard drop the abuse case?
Yes, with prejudice.
Did Amber Heard’s bruises disappear?
Did the police know it was Johnny Depp’s residence when they were called there?
No, the police officers that were called to the residence did not know that it was the home of Johnny Depp, nor did they know that Amber Heard was married to Johnny Depp, since she gave them her maiden name.
Are California police officers required to make an arrest in domestic abuse cases if there is any evidence?
Did J.K. Rowling see Johnny Depp’s evidence?
Yes. In an interview with EW magazine, Johnny Depp stated that JK has seen his evidence, and believes that he is innocent.
Was Johnny Depp in the country when Amber Heard got a restraining order?
Has Johnny Depp ever been violent on set?
Did Amber Heard demand more money?
Yes. She tried to double the 7 million into 14 million.
Did Johnny Depp donate money in Amber Heard’s name?
Yes. See above.
Does Amber Heard have a PR guy?
Yes. His name is Todd Krim.
Was Johnny Depp cast as Grindelwald before the allegations?
Was the video edited?
Does the video show abuse?
As a real human person, speaking from my own experience, I have witnessed five women who were verbally and physically abusive.
I am going to change the names of these women, just for privacy reasons. Let’s go with Alice, Brenda, Marge, Beth, and Kelly.
These are the following reasons people would excuse these women for being violent and abusive:
They are women.
They were pushed into it.
They were emotionally troubled.
They were yelling/hitting a man.
I have said it before, and I will say it again. Abuse has no gender. “They are women” does NOT stand as an excuse for them to be abusive. Unfortunately, many people honestly believe it does. They believe that women have the right to behave this way towards men due to the inherent belief that men OWE them something…and that women are superior to men. (There is also the inherent belief that since all men are evil, they have abuse coming to them.)
I can safely say that NONE of the women that I listed were pushed, pressured, forced, or otherwise manipulated into committing their various acts of abuse.
All of them were emotionally troubled, but this did not excuse their abusive nature. It will never excuse abusive nature.
And again, men don’t deserve to be hit or screamed at just because they are men.
If these ‘feminists’ took a step back and looked at some of the arguments they are making…they would realize that many of them are the same arguments they fight against in regards to men hitting women. “The woman deserved it”, “the man was just angry”…but they believe that a female’s abusive behavior is justified, so they indulge in hypocrisy and ignore obvious logical fallacies to prove their point.
ABUSE. IS. NEVER. JUSTIFIED.
NO. MATTER. THE. GENDER.
OR. THE. SEXUALITY.
All of the women I listed, as I have said, were abusive. Let’s start with Alice. Alice was very narcissistic. She constantly had to make everything about herself. She was hateful towards my father, and found every opportunity possible to put him down. She was manipulative of his relationship with me, and she was very vicious when it came to their arguments.
Nothing justified her behavior. Nothing justified her trying to come in between a ten-year-old-girl and her father’s relationship…nothing justified her manipulating him into buying her daughter more presents at Christmas…nothing justified her insulting my dad at every single given opportunity. None of that was justified. But you feminists keep going on with your ‘men are shit’ tirade.
Brenda. Brenda was very very emotionally abusive towards my uncle. She would scream at him, constantly try to start fights over anything and everything, she would threaten to take their kids away, she would hit him, constantly tell the rest of the family lies about him, tell them he was hitting her, screaming at her, that he was horrible to live with…when I personally witnessed her behaving this way on several occasions. She has been to jail for drug-related issues…she has seen several psychiatrists…but feminists will still believe that her behavior was my uncle’s fault. All of her abuse was my uncle’s fault. He deserved it because he is a man.
Marge. This woman was psychically abusive towards her daughter, doing things like putting her hands on a hot stove for misbehaving, burning her hands with cigarettes, pushing her down stairs, and many other ‘disciplinary’ acts. She was also very verbally abusive, telling her daughter that she was worth nothing, that she would never be anything…the list goes on. But feminists will try their hardest to justify her behavior.
Beth. This woman also tried to come between my father and I. She was trying to pit him against me from day one, telling him I was a horrible daughter and that I was less than her. She acted superior to me, and constantly tried to force my father to believe her lies.
Kelly. Kelly was the same as Brenda. Emotionally abusive and manipulative, physically abusive, and very conniving.
ALL FIVE OF THESE WOMEN WERE ABUSIVE ON THEIR OWN. NO ONE MADE THEM BE ABUSIVE. NO ONE ELSE IS RESPONSIBLE BUT THEM.
Just like Amber Heard is responsible for her abuse of Johnny Depp and Tasya Van Ree.
Women can be abusive. Women can be manipulative. Women can be viscous. Women can lie.
Both women and men are on a level playing field when it comes to their capacity for being abusive. Their methods may differ here and there, but neither gender is incapable of being abusive towards another human being.
I get so tired of feminists turning a blind eye and ear to the very obvious truth that some women aren’t deserving of their support. Some women are, in fact, a problem.
Spreading the idea that women shouldn’t need to claim responsibility for malicious acts…or acting like they don’t commit them at all…this gives women like Amber Heard the opportunity to make men into victims, to make other women into victims. Feminists will continue to allow them to fall through the cracks just so they can keep pretending that all women are good and men are shit.
We need to stop dividing this into a gender issue. It is a people issue. People can be abusive. When they are abusive, they need to be held responsible.
A man is abusive: Jail.
A woman is abusive: Jail.
There is no argument you can make to fight against that.
And some feminists even go as far as CELEBRATING when women are violent, as though that is empowering and strong.
IT FUCKING ISN’T. IT IS NOT EMPOWERING AND IT IS NOT STRONG. IT IS COWARDLY.
STOP CELEBRATING ABUSIVE WOMEN, AND STOP PRETENDING THAT ABUSIVE WOMEN AREN’T ABUSIVE.
It is not that hard.
And don’t let men be hated just for the false idea that all women are good. This is misleading and untrue.
A list…of technically excellent pieces of music with a touch of nostalgia and complete and utter subjectivity.
As stated, I am basing this list on memorability and my nostalgia factor. This list is not meant for you to agree with, this list is not meant to match anyone else’s list, and this list is not your list, it is my list. Your list is most likely incredibly different. There are probably going to be a few songs on here that you have never heard of.
I am going to list the top 50 in order, and all songs after that will not have an order (unless I get really ambitious, which is unlikely).
I have a wide mix of genres here, because I listen to a wide mix of genres.
I have only elected to choose one song from any one artist (except in a few special cases).
So without further ado, prepare to either be pleased or pissed off, and know that I don’t give a single mother of fuck which one it is.
(If there are artists that I wish I could have featured more songs from, I will note this with an asterisk.)
1. Home Sweet Home – Motley Crue*
This song has been a part of my life since I was in middle school. I remember driving through Minneapolis one night with my grandmother…just listening to this as I watched the city lights go by…it just transports me to another place. It will always be my all time favorite, I think.
(Honorable mentions are On With The Show, Kickstart My Heart, Save Our Souls, Without You…I also think Motley is the only band that I know every single song they ever released by heart.)
2. Killers – Iron Maiden*
This song…it is ALMOST tied with Home Sweet Home…my dad had the Killers cassette tape in his truck when I was six or seven…I came across this song and immediately fell in love with it…(I was seven)…and demanded that he replay it over and over.
I had no idea who the artist was, or was the song was about, or any of that, I just liked it. It has remained one of my all time favorite songs since then, AND my favorite song by Iron Maiden.
3. Faithfully – Journey*
Of all the beautiful songs by Journey…this is the one that grabbed me and never let me go. I listened to this almost exclusively all the way to and from Tennessee (we drove) and will never get tired of listening to it.
(Honorable mention is Lights, as that was my grandma’s favorite song.)
4. Van Nuys – Sixx A.M.*
This entire album, The Heroin Diaries, is truly a musical masterpiece. Every single track is an experience, something to behold. But this song is my favorite out of all of them, and trust me, that was a hard decision. Nikki’s song writing, combined with James’ voice, and the instrumentals, it makes this track unforgettable.
5. Song To The Siren – This Mortal Coil
I first heard this when I was watching The Texas Chainsaw Massacre…and it took me several years to actually look the song up. When I did, I instantly loved it, and have loved it ever since. The haunting vocals, and the simplicity of the song is amazing.
6. Unchained Melody – The Righteous Brothers
Special mention: Little Latin Lupe Lu
When anyone talks about ‘soul’ being in a song, or emotion, or feeling…it is impossible to not mention this song. One of the best songs of all time, it gives me goosebumps every time I listen to it. Absolutely beautiful.
7. Mockingbird – Eminem*
The GOAT…the legend…the devil, Eminem. I thought long and hard about which song of his I wanted to include in the top 10 (there was never a question about whether I WOULD include him in the top 10)…and it came down to which song popped into my head first when thinking of Eminem…that song was Mockingbird. The emotion in this track, and the heartbreak…it is absolutely amazing. 10/10
(Honorable mentions include the rest of his songs.)
8. I’ll Be Missing You (feat. 112) – Diddy, Faith Evans
Number one, I believe this version to be better than Sting’s version…don’t fight me. I just love the extra emotion and strong sense of both loss and love in this recording, and it is an extremely nostalgic song for me.
9. The Show Must Go On – Queen*
Freddie Mercury’s picture is in the dictionary next to talent, legendary, amazing, and iconic. And this song ought to be right next to it. All of the Queen songs are masterpieces, but this one touches me unlike any of the others. It just has such a deeply inspirational note to it without getting cheesy or cringy. I love this song.
10. Soldier Of Fortune – Deep Purple*
There are few songs that make me actually depressed when I listen to them…this is one of them. It just…infuses emotion into you. David Coverdale sings it from the heart, and it moves you. One of the best rock ballads of all time.
11. Hypnotize – Notorious B.I.G.
Fun fact, back when I was little, I used to think that the chorus was saying ‘Piggy’…needless to say, it dramatically changed the song for me when I discovered that they were actually saying ‘Biggie’…
Anyway, just as all of his other songs prove, Biggie is one of the best lyricists of all time, and one of the best rappers of all time.
12. Underneath Your Clothes – Shakira
I have always loved Shakira’s voice…and this song is amazing to me. Just the softness and intimacy in the song makes it one of her best, and my favorite by her.
13. Life 101 (feat. Khrys Maxwell) – Call Me Alice
This is one of the more obscure songs on this list, but I just love the feeling in the song, and the message…the lyrics are honest, and the vocals work really well with all of it.
14. Running Bear – Johnny Preston
There is such a simple story here, and simple lyrics, but it makes this song no less beautiful to me. I also love the whimsical-ness of Preston’s voice. It makes the song a joy to listen to.
15. Start Wearing Purple – Gogol Bordello
If I ever get drunk (and I probably won’t) it had better be to this song.
16. Love Bites – Def Leppard
Joe Elliot’s voice is so unique, and this song is one of the best love songs of all time. It transports you into a place as though you are the heartbroken one. Amazing.
17. Hello – Evanescence
Another voice that is very unique…Amy Lee shines here. The song deals with such a heavy subject, but manages to make it delicate and beautiful.
18. Cherry Bomb – The Runaways
I personally love Cherie Currie’s voice, it has such a rough quality to it, and I love the lyrics of this song. One of the great female-led tracks.
19. Don’t Speak – No Doubt
This song has such a solemn atmosphere…and it has a very high dose of nostalgia for me. I used to listen to it all the time before I ever knew who it was.
20. Picture (feat. Sheryl Crow) – Kid Rock
A great dynamic here using two singers for two different parts of the song…yet the lyrics sort of mirror each other. I love this.
21. Beauty*2 – Ladytron
Another more obscure song on this list…it has a very dark serious, yet interesting vibe, and I love the singer’s voice. I always picture a dark rainy street somewhere in France when listening to this song. Not sure why.
22. Un-Break My Heart – Tony Braxton
An absolute classic, and another one that I used to listen to before I ever knew who it was. I love this song so much.
23. How Do I Live – LeAnn Rimes
My grandmother used to play this song in the car all the time, and I will always remember it just because of the gorgeous tone of Rimes’ voice.
24. Ms. Jackson – OutKast
More nostalgia. I listened to this before I ever even knew what the song meant, who it was by (I thought it was by Dre for awhile)…but now the song is an absolute classic for me.
25. Master of Puppets – Metallica
Upon trying to decide which Metallica song to put on this list (because at least one had to be on here)…I had several ideas, before finally deciding on this one. Though I could probably put a handful of songs here, this one is my favorite song from them.
26. Break Stuff – Limp Bizkit
The ultimate angry song. This makes a great song to listen to on Monday morning.
27. Purple Rain – Prince
Anyone who doesn’t like this song is wrong.
28. Goodbye Horses – Q Lazzarus
This song comes from my favorite comedy movie of all time, Clerks II. Would you fuck me? I would fuck me.
29. Bitch – Meredith Brooks
ALL THE NOSTALGIA. I fucking love this song.
30. Don’t Let Me Get Me – P!NK
Anyone who had self esteem issues loved this song.
31. Bad Boys – Inner Circle
This is like…the essence of the urban life.
32. Can’t Help Falling In Love – Elvis Presley
What a soulful voice. Unforgettable.
33.No Diggity – Blackstreet
This song is a favorite just because of the chorus.
34. Mourning Air – Portishead
Obscure, don’t care. Love it.
35. Dauoalogn – Sigur Ros
This is the ultimate TV-show-tragic finale song.
36. Dragula – Rob Zombie
I first discovered this song through my obsession with Twisted Metal on the original PlayStation.
37. I Put A Spell On You – Marilyn Manson
The ultimate dark romance song.
38. Paint It Black – The Rolling Stones
Did the Beatles ever write a song as great as this? I don’t think so.
39. The Devil Went Down To Georgia – The Charlie Daniels Band
If I knew how to play the violin, which I don’t, I could absolutely play this song.
40. Real – Macy Gray
First discovered this song in Domino.
41. The Woman In Me – Shania Twain
42. It’s Been Awhile – Staind
43. Hurt – Johnny Cash
44. We Belong – Pat Benatar
45. The Thunder Rolls – Garth Brooks
46. Holy Diver – Dio
47. Carry On My Wayward Son – Kansas
48. Might As Well Be On Mars – Alice Cooper
49. White Rabbit – Jefferson Airplane
50. Lady Grinning Soul – David Bowie
51. Take My Breath Away – Berlin
52. Mama, I’m Coming Home – Ozzy Osbourne
53. The Final Countdown – Europe
54. Eye Of The Tiger – Survivor
55. Zombie – The Cranberries
56. American Pie – Don McLean
57. The Sound Of Silence – Simon and Garfunkel
58. Stronger – Britney Spears
59. Immigrant Song – Led Zeppelin
60. I Fink U Freeky – Die Antwoord
61. Blind – Korn
62. Problems – Lil Peep
63. Coming Home – Avenged Sevenfold
62. No Sleep Till Brooklyn – Beastie Boys
63. Fantasy – Aldo Nova
64. Wreck Of The Edmund Fitzgerald – Gordon Lightfoot
65. We Are Young (feat. Janelle Monae) – Fun.
67. Gangsta’s Paradise – Coolio
68. Make It Rain – Ed Sheeran
69. The Wanderer – Dion
70. Toxic Love – Tim Curry
71. Hallelujah – Jeff Buckley
72. Lonely Boy – The Black Keys
73. Bother – Stone Sour
74. 18 And Life – Skid Row
75. New Low – Middle Class Rut
76. B.Y.O.B – System of a Down
77. It’s Tricky – Run D.M.C.
78. We Built This City – Starship
79. This Is The Time – Nothing More
80. Welcome Home – King Diamond
81. Crazy He Calls Me – Billie Holiday
82. Smooth (feat. Rob Thomas) – Santana
83. Glycerine – Bush
84. Your Betrayal – Bullet For My Valentine
85. As Heaven Is Wide – Garbage
86. Intuition – Jewel
87. Larger Than Life – Backstreet Boys
88. Believe – Cher
89. Hollaback Girl – Gwen Stefani
90. Pony – Ginuwine
91. Tears From The Moon – Conjure One
92. Summer Nights – Grease
93. Knockin’ On Heaven’s Door – Guns N’ Roses
94. If Heaven Ain’t A Lot Like Dixie – Hank Williams Jr.
95. Losing My Grip – Hoobastank
96. Bang Bang – Nancy Sinatra
97. Close My Eyes Forever – Lita Ford, Ozzy Osbourne
98. So Long, And Thanks For All The Fish – A Perfect Circle
99. Welcome To The Black Parade – My Chemical Romance
Before I get into this list, I want to educate people on what a non disclosure agreement is, how a person can violate it, and the reasons one is put into place.
Confidentiality agreements typically serve three key functions:
NDAs protect sensitive information. By signing an NDA, participants promise to not divulge or release information shared with them by the other people involved. If the information is leaked, the injured person can claim breach of contract.
Confidentiality agreements and NDAs expressly outline what information is private and what’s fair game. In many cases, the agreement serves as a document that classifies exclusive and confidential information. Link.
What Happens if an NDA is breached?
If an NDA is breached, the party who revealed the confidential information could be sued for damages, be forced to pay back lost profits, and in some cases, be held in contempt of court (which could lead to criminal charges).
Confidentiality agreements can be rigid, requiring both parties to agree never to disclose various details about the marriage, the divorce, or the settlement, or can be far more flexible, depending upon the needs and desires of the parties. Link.
So, presumably, Amber Heard and Johnny Depp signed an NDA so they could both move on with their lives. You know, in that funny world where everything makes sense and no one ever does anything bad. Because like I just said, the general idea of an NDA is for both parties to adhere to it. Fully.
Johnny Depp did.
Amber Heard didn’t.
The first shining example of her inability to adhere to the simple terms of her divorce is this, and I very much hate having to look at this video again, but it is for the good of this blog:
The first thing I will point out (I will also state that I am treading into opinion territory) is that her ‘acting’ ability, or lack thereof, is blatantly obvious here. She is all over the place, trying to act sad, angry, offended, etc…and it just turns into a mess of head bobbing, disjointed statements, and trying-too-hard to appear victim-ly.
One thing you will notice throughout all of the times that she enters the ‘advocate’ sphere, is that she follows a script. A very obvious buzzword tagline script designed to insinuate herself within actual victim spaces.
In the media, in the culture…
Speak up…raise your voice…
And the other thing I will point out is that not only is she lying about her own ‘abuse’ here, she is recording a PSA about domestic violence, while sitting there KNOWING that she abused TWO spouses.
A person who pretends to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she does notactually possess, especially a person whose actions belie stated beliefs.
A person who feigns some desirable or publicly approved attitude, especially one whose private life,opinions, or statements belie his or her public statements.
Amber Heard’s interview with Allure Magazine in November, 2017.
Quite frankly, I am very surprised that Allure Magazine and Danielle Pergament were never hit with a lawsuit over this article.
Heard and Pergament only mention the divorce and ‘abuse’ directly right in the beginning:
“She was a victim of domestic violence.”
When? Was it proven? No. Did she have actual evidence? No. Did she actually want to go to court? Obviously not. A journalist cannot voice a statement as a fact when it isn’t a fact. You don’t even have to go to college to know that. Damn. Then again, the journalist kind of gets away with it by adding the ‘you have read’ tag to it.
They also mention Depp’s name directly. Come on.
Observe that Amber Heard is the Q-U-E-E-N of making absolute what-the-fuck-did-I-just-read b u l l s h i t sound smart. She says absolutely nothing in this paragraph. Nothing. The only thing one can glean from this nonsense is that she thinks she has a right to help women.
(By the way, her “I have a semi-functioning brain” might be the only true thing she has said in the last three years.)
She doesn’t. At all. Ever. Not when she is an admitted domestic abuser against two previous spouses.
Moving on again…
To Amber Heard’s self-penned letter on domestic abuse, published in Porter Magazine.
Let’s tackle this one thing at a time:
‘To my silent sisters’…her sisters?
The other women that have lied about domestic violence…oh wait, according to feminists, those don’t exist (don’t worry, I will have a segment on those women later)…she surely isn’t talking to other domestic abuse victims as though she is one…is she?
Yeah, she is.
“To break down the doors I once found myself behind.”
She is so good at skirting the issue while not directly speaking plainly about it.
“I was raised to be independent and self-reliant.”
That must be why she demanded 50,000 a month, a car, three condos, and legal fees paid from Johnny Depp. She’s independent.
Next, we have Heard’s Twitter adventures. Let’s start with this:
My first point of contention is that…she wasn’t even there?
My second point of contention, is that once again, she has no business ‘standing in solidarity’ with her ‘sisters’, unless it is standing in solidarity in the lunch line next to her sisters inorange.
Then, we have this spectacular moment.
This was in response to the statement regarding Johnny Depp’s casting made by J.K. Rowling and David Yates. This is a direct violation of the NDA. (I will get into their statements later.)
Then we have these, which further show off Heard’s intelligence:
Finally, we have the most recent item:
Notice how she has no problem speaking about any of her experience UNTIL the interview mentions the GQ article and Johnny’s denial. Heard suddenly “can’t speak about that.”
Aaaaaand her Instagram taunts:
Since 2016, Heard has been taunting Depp and flaunting the abuse she inflicted on him while portraying herself as a survivor of domestic violence to the media and the public.
To the Sun Case.
I am going to lump J.K. Rowling’s and David’s statements in with this. They both came forward many times to express support for Johnny Depp in the role of Gellert Grindelwald.
“Honestly, there’s an issue at the moment where there’s a lot of people being accused of things, they’re being accused by multiple victims, and it’s compelling and frightening,” Yates said. “With Johnny, it seems to me there was one person who took a pop at him and claimed something. I can only tell you about the man I see every day: He’s full of decency and kindness, and that’s all I see. Whatever accusation was out there doesn’t tally with the kind of human being I’ve been working with.”
“By testament, some of the women in [Depp’s] life have said the same thing — ‘that’s not the human being we know,’” Yates said. “It’s very different [than cases] where there are multiple accusers over many years that need to be examined and we need to reflect on our industry that allows that to roll on year in and year out. Johnny isn’t in that category in any shape or form. So to me, it doesn’t bear any more analysis. It’s a dead issue.”
When Johnny Depp was cast as Grindelwald, I thought he’d be wonderful in the role. However, around the time of filming his cameo in the first movie, stories had appeared in the press that deeply concerned me and everyone most closely involved in the franchise.
Harry Potter fans had legitimate questions and concerns about our choice to continue with Johnny Depp in the role. As David Yates, long-time Potter director, has already said, we naturally considered the possibility of recasting. I understand why some have been confused and angry about why that didn’t happen.
The huge, mutually supportive community that has grown up around Harry Potter is one of the greatest joys of my life. For me personally, the inability to speak openly to fans about this issue has been difficult, frustrating and at times painful. However, the agreements that have been put in place to protect the privacy of two people, both of whom have expressed a desire to get on with their lives, must be respected. Based on our understanding of the circumstances, the filmmakers and I are not only comfortable sticking with our original casting, but genuinely happy to have Johnny playing a major character in the movies.
I’ve loved writing the first two screenplays and I can’t wait for fans to see ‘The Crimes of Grindelwald’. I accept that there will be those who are not satisfied with our choice of actor in the title role. However, conscience isn’t governable by committee. Within the fictional world and outside it, we all have to do what we believe to be the right thing.
I am putting these at the beginning, because the Sun case started due to Dan Wooton’s defamatory libel article, attacking J.K. Rowling for allowing Depp to be cast as Grindelwald.
The original headline was as follows:
After Depp sued the paper, it was changed to this:
It was the inclusion of ‘wife-beater’ the first time around that landed them with the lawsuit.
These are the statements that Adam Waldman (Depp’s lawyer) have made to the media regarding the case. It must be noted that Heard has not denied Depp’s allegations of abuse. It is also worth remembering that not only has she not denied them, she
FUCKING ADMITTED TO THEM IN COURT DOCUMENTS.
Waldman has stated that they will be presenting evidence in court that proves that not only did Amber Heard fake the allegations, she herself abused Johnny Depp many times.
This slideshow is here because a lot of people like to go on and on about how “Depp’s career was never affected from the allegations”…which is absolute bullshit contradicted by the very people making that claim. Observe for yourself the bullying aimed at Johnny Depp and J.K. Rowling.
In one of the most recent issues of UK GQ, Johnny Depp did an interview with Jonathan Heaf…a kind of rebuke or clapback to the Rolling Stone article done a few months ago.
(As just stated, all passages from this article are property of Jonathan Heaf and GQ UK. Link.)
I want to discuss certain pieces of this article here. Because Depp has a lot of pertinent things to say, and a lot of true character to reveal to all of those people that think they “know” Johnny Depp.
This is a man that has had betrayal come from almost every angle of his life. His professional partners, his wife, his family…he was living in a hell for four years, maybe even longer. And to try and suggest, like some people have, that his experience was invalid because of reasons A, B, and C (rich, a man, a “wife-beater”, no talent)…this is coming from the people that are advocating for men’s equality…these are the people that are standing up and saying that men’s issues matter too, that we should listen to men…and then they turn around and say “fuck Johnny Depp”. These people are nothing but hypocrites that only pretend to believe in the causes that they make themselves out to be champions of, blinded by a greedy media and their lies.
This is also a man that despite all of that betrayal, despite all of the lies and the deceit he had to put up with…stood by the one thing that mattered, the one thing that would continue to matter above all else…the truth. He knew the truth, he knew what the media could never change, what Amber Heard could never change…it was just a matter of revealing that truth the right way.
People like to paint Johnny Depp as just another product of the Hollywood machine, as just another actor, just another crazy celebrity…but all one has to do to dismiss that notion is read this paragraph, because ultimately, all Johnny Depp is…is a human being.
Here, he talks candidly about the video that was leaked by TMZ showing an angry Depp…a video that has been called ‘heavily edited’ and a video that is an obvious act of entrapment and gas lighting.
The video was made on purpose to A. paint him as a violent man, and B. to sway the opinion of both on-the-fence people, and further solidify an opinion already shared by many: He was an abusive monster.
But the video in question, even despite being edited, doesn’t show that. It shows an angry man that just found out he had lost millions of dollars. I would be angry too, and I might even throw something or wreck a pillow.
That does not make a person abusive.
This one speaks for itself. Defamation of character, a tarnishing of your image into the opposite of what you actually are…even to a person who cares very little for the opinions of others…that blatant misrepresentation can hurt anyone.
This is a man that will do a n y t h i n g to protect those that he loves. That is his priority above anything else.
Can a person really believe that he would turn around and hurt those people?
I rest my case.
His kids. That is all this man gives a shit about. His kids and the people that support him. Everyone else is just a fart in the wind for their opinion of him.
Just read it.
To echo Johnny’s sentiments, I will never stop defending him, because he will never stop fighting, so why should I?
A lot of the narrative surrounding Johnny Depp and Amber Heard borrows from a larger narrative surrounding gender. I am going to attempt to debunk a lot of those myths now, with some instances where the preconceived notions of gender and gender behavior regarding crime seem to not apply.
Starting with the myths that women “are too small and weak to hurt men, that women don’t hurt men, and that women never lie”.
I am also going to include this very well written paper as a supplement (and an excerpt):
This paper presents and discusses the varied findings on women’s roles as perpetrators of IPA. The reasons for these varied findings are examined and the implications of the research finding gender symmetry in the perpetration of IPA are discussed. This paper documents the importance of the approach taken by the researcher regarding whether IPA is found to be gendered. This overview of scientific research concludes that IPA is indeed gendered, that the perpetrators are more commonly men and the victims are more commonly women. This review also emphasizes the importance of not simply examining types of abuse reported, but the consequences of the abuse. We hope to clarify women’s use of violence in IPA as having typically different intentions than men’s abuse of intimate partners.
First of all, I find that first myth absolutely ridiculous just on the grounds that this show exists:
This is a show that revolves around women murdering men. That’s all it is.
…The show paints all of the crimes as heroic, or as some kind of rebellious necessity.
But if a person wanted to make a show about men murdering women…nope.
Anyways, below is a list of cases where a woman has either hurt, severely hurt, or killed her spouse or partner:
(Before that, I wanted to point out something that I found fascinating. Every time I typed in specific words like “violent women” or “women that have murdered men” or “women on trial for domestic violence”…Google twisted it every time to only display search results about violent men.)
…But women are never violent, ever. (Also, don’t forget Jodi Arias and Casey Anthony.)
Haley, have gone over 9000 on my irritation meter for the slander against Johnny Depp.
Warning:This is going to be loooooong.
Note:Anything that I cannot prove, anything that is speculation, is going to be clearly marked withthis color.
Before I start this, I am going to act as a teacher for just a few moments. Here are a few important definitions you will see in this blog post:
Fact: A thing that is indisputably the case.
Proof: Evidence or argument establishing or helping to establish a fact or the truth of a statement.
Divorce: The legal dissolution of a marriage by a court or other competent body.
Allegations: A claim or assertion that someone has done something illegal or wrong, typically one made without proof.
Admitted: Confess to be true or to be the case, typically with reluctance.
Charges: Accuse (someone) of something, especially an offense under law.
Arrest: Seize (someone) by legal authority and take into custody.
Restraining order: A temporary court order issued to prohibit an individual from carrying out a particular action, especially approaching or contacting a specified person.
Conviction: A formal declaration that someone is guilty of a criminal offense, made by the verdict of a jury or the decision of a judge in a court of law.
Abuse: Treat (a person or an animal) with cruelty or violence, especially regularly or repeatedly.
Narcissist: A person who has an excessive interest in or admiration of themselves.
Law: The system of rules that a particular country or community recognizes as regulating the actions of its members and may enforce by the imposition of penalties.
Presumption of innocence: The principle that one is considered innocent unless proven guilty.
Victim: A person harmed, injured, or killed as a result of a crime, accident, or other event or action.
Survivor:A person who copes well with difficulties in their life.
Criminal defense lawyer:A lawyer specializing in the defense of individuals and companies charged with criminal activity.
With prejudice: A case in which the plaintiff is barred from filing another case on the same claim. Dismissal with prejudice is a final judgment and the case becomes ‘res judicata’ on the claims that were or could have been brought in it.
Now, in the interest of covering all of the bases, we are going to start with both Amber Heard and Johnny Depp before they ever got together. Amber first.
A brief bio:Amber Heard was born to parents Patricia Paige and David Heard in Austin, Texas(this will be important later), and appeared in small film and TV roles until her breakout role in Pineapple Express in 2008. She then appeared alongside Johnny Depp in the Rum Diary in 2011. Before Johnny Depp, she was in a long-term relationship with Tasya van Ree.
IMPORTANT: ABUSE HAS NO GENDER. REPEAT THAT ABOUT SIX TIMES.
In 2009, Amber Heard wasarrested for misdemeanor assault against her partner, Tasya van Ree. The incident happened in an airport in Seattle, and was witnessed by Beverly Leonard, a police officer. Heard grabbed and struck van Ree’s arm in an apparent argument. LeonardarrestedHeard.
Tasya did not drop the charges. The charges had a two-year statute of limitations, meaning that they could be filed again within two years. This also means that there was sufficient evidence to prosecute, but being that the incident did not happen in Heard’s state of residency (California) the judge didn’t elect to pursue the charges.
I am going to repeat the above statement again. Abuse has no gender. It is inappropriate to ignore this abuse case for the following reasons:
It was in a female/female relationship.
The abuse was perpetrated by a female.
The gender of either person does not matter, and the nature of the relationship does not matter. Amber Heard hit Tasya van Ree, period.
Now, it is worth mentioning that van Ree did not defend Heard until 2016. That is seven years after the incident occurred. She allowed Heard to be arrested without protest, and she allowed Heard to appear in court without protest.
Before I mention what van Ree used as the ‘defense’, I am going to mention an interesting tidbit of information involving Heard, and the mark on her record regarding the abuse incident.
In 2011, Heard asked for the abuse charges to be expunged from her record. Deleted, taken off, wiped. Normally, this may not be so strange. If a person has turned around for the better, and they are no longer a danger to anyone, why should a past mistake define them? However, in 2011, she was also starring in the Rum Diary alongside Johnny Depp. Quite the coincidence for her to suddenly want her abuse record gone…perhaps because she didn’t want Depp to sniff her out or get suspicious beforehand about her potential behavior?
Now, in2016, when Heard’s2009domestic violence arrest was dredged up, Tasya van Ree suddenly had a lot to say about it.
Yep. Tasya van Ree claimed that the reason Heard was arrested was because the officer that witnessed the incident was homophobic and misogynistic. Tasya called the incident ‘misunderstood’ and ‘sensationalized’. Reminder, this is the first time Tasya spoke out in defense of the charges against Heard since2009.
However, once van Ree made that claim, the arresting officer was quick to speak out in defense of her actions.
She told her mother to ‘never make eye contact’ with the press in a very authoritative way. This is just the first example of her controlling behavior that I will mention.
Now, I will give a brief rundown of any relevant pieces of Depp’s personal history.
First, his relationships (pay attention to the underlined ones, they will be important later):
Lori Allison (1983-1985): Married.
Sherilyn Fenn (1985-1988): Engaged.
Jennifer Grey (1989): Dated.
Winona Ryder (1989-1993): Engaged.
Juliette Lewis (1993): Rumored to have dated.
Ellen Barkin (1994): Dated.
Kate Moss (1994-1998): Dated.
Vanessa Paradis (1998-2012): Dated and had two children, Lily-Rose and Jack.
Let us count really quick. That is eight women. 1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8. (Just in case you can’t count.)
NONE OF THESE WOMEN EVER ACCUSED JOHNNY DEPP OF ANY KIND OF ABUSE. EVER.
Depp has also been arrested before. The one that people like to reference the most in regards to Heard’s claims is the hotel incident in 1994. Click.
No matter what anyone claims, makes up, decides, or suggests, this incident was not a case of domestic violence. Period.
The other case that is referenced is his paparazzi incident in 1999, when he threatened a photographer for trying to take a picture of a pregnant Vanessa Paradis. Click.
This is also not, in any way, evidence of an abusive personality. At all.
Before we get into the relationship and aftermath, I want to go over a couple of key things first. Namely, characteristics of both an abuser and a victim, characteristics of a narcissist, and some of the stigma surrounding male victims of domestic violence.
I am going to repeat this again, because this is still very important:
ABUSE VICTIMS CAN BE BOTH MEN AND WOMEN.
Characteristics of an abuser (this list originally only used male pronouns, but I have changed it to be gender neutral):
Initially, they shower their partner with praise, adoration, and attention. The courtship is sweet and intense filled with phrases such as, “I can’t live without you.” They quickly push for an exclusive relationship or engagement.
They view other people as a threat to the relationship and accuses you of flirting with everyone from their sibling to the mailman. “I know you are looking at them.” The irony is that they are often the one who is cheating.
This person is very intelligent. They know how to detect your weak spots, and they use your vulnerability and past pain to their advantage. “You were abused as a kid because you are so ugly.”
They want to know where you are going and who you are with at all times. They may check the mileage on your car or follow you to the grocery store. They often refuse to allow you to work because you might “meet someone.”
5. A Victim.
Their poor choices are everyone else’s fault. When they lose their job, get into a fight, or a business deal falls through, it’s always because of the other person. They are never at fault. “You make me hit you.”
The whole world revolves around them. As the “little person who is beneath him,” it is your job to meet their every need. They are the master; you are the unworthy slave. It’s invigorating for them to know that everyone around them “walk on eggshells.”
Mood swings are a common trait for an abuser. One minute they seem happy and sweet, the next they are pounding their fist.
No matter how hard you try you will never be able to satisfy this kind of person. They think nothing of degrading and verbally assaulting you. “You are a stupid, fat, disgusting person. You can never leave me. No other person would have you.”
Their main goal is to isolate their victim from family and friends so that you are totally dependent on them. “Your family causes too much trouble for us. I don’t want you seeing them anymore.”
The slightest offense sends them ranting. Everyone is out to “get them.”
11. Vicious and cruel.
A significant number of abusers harm children and animals as well as a partner. Inflicting pain and intimidating others is what gives them power. “I’ll kill you before I’ll let you go. If I can’t have you, no one will.”
12. Insincerely repentant.
They will swear to never “hit you again.” But unless they receive professional help and strong accountability it’s very unlikely that they will change.
Pay very close attention to the above list, because all of it will be important later.
Now, characteristics of a narcissist:
1. Frequent Lies and Exaggerations
Both narcissists and gaslighters are prone to frequent lies and exaggerations (about themselves and others), and have the tendency of lifting themselves up by putting others down. While narcissists often strive to make themselves seem superior and “special” by showing off, bragging, taking undeserved credit, and other forms of self-aggrandizement, gaslighters tend to concentrate on making you feel inferior through false accusations, constant criticism, and psychological intimidation. Both narcissists and gaslighters can be adept at distortion of facts, deliberate falsehoods, character assassinations, and negative coercions. One key difference is that while the narcissist lies and exaggerates to boost their fragile self-worth, the gaslighter does so to augment their domination and control.
2. Rarely Admit Flaws and Are Highly Aggressive When Criticized
Many narcissists and gaslighters have thin skin and can react poorly when called to account for their negative behavior. When challenged, the narcissist is likely to either fight (e.g., temper tantrum, excuse-making, denial, blame, hypersensitivity, etc.) or take flight (bolt out the door, avoidance, silent treatment, sulking resentment, or other forms of passive-aggression). The gaslighter nearly always resorts to escalation by doubling or tripling down on their false accusations or coercions, to intimidate or oppress their opponent. Many gaslighters view relationships as inherently competitive rather than collaborative; a zero-sum game where one is either a winner or a loser, on top or at the bottom. “Offense is the best defense” is a mantra for many gaslighters, which also represents their aggressive method of relating to people.
3. False Image Projection
“My husband always wants people to see him as successful, powerful, and envy-worthy, no matter how shaky his real life actually is.” —Anonymous partner of narcissist
Both narcissists and gaslighters tend to project false, idealized images of themselves to the world, in order to hide their inner insecurities. Many narcissists like to impress others by making themselves look good externally. This “trophy complex” can exhibit itself physically, romantically, sexually, socially, religiously, financially, materially, professionally, academically, or culturally. The underlying message of this display is: “I’m better than you!” or “Look at how special I am — I’m worthy of everyone’s love, admiration, and acceptance!”
Gaslighters, on the other hand, often create an idealized self-image of being the dominant, suppressive alpha male or female in personal relationships, at the workplace, or in high-profile positions of society (such as politics and media). Many gaslighters like to view themselves falsely as all-powerful and strong, capable of dishing out judgments and penalties at will. Pathological gaslighters often take pride and boost themselves up by marginalizing those whom they perceive as weaker, believing that the meek deserve their downtrodden fate. They attack their victims with direct or subtle cruelty and contempt, gaining sadistic pleasure from these offenses, and betraying a lack of empathy and humanity.
In essence, narcissists want others to worship them, while gaslighters want others to submit to them. In a big way, these external facades become pivotal parts of their false identities, replacing the real and insecure self.
4. Rule Breaking and Boundary Violation
Many narcissists and gaslighters enjoy getting away with violating rules and social norms. Examples of narcissistic trespass include cutting in line, chronic under-tipping, personal space intrusion, borrowing items without returning, using other’s properties without asking, disobeying traffic laws, breaking appointments, and negating promises. Examples of gaslighting trespass include direct or subtle marginalizing remarks, public or private shaming and humiliation, sardonic humor and sarcastic comments, internet trolling, angry and hateful speech, and virulent attacks on undesirable individuals and groups.
Both narcissist and gaslighter boundary violations presume entitlement, with a narrow, egocentric orientation that oppresses and de-humanizes their victims. In severe cases, this boundary violation pathology may result in illicit and underhanded dealings, financial abuse, sexual harassment, date rape, domestic abuse, hate crimes, human rights violations, and other forms of criminality. Many narcissists and gaslighters take pride in their destructive behaviors, as their machinations provide them with a hollow (and desperate) sense of superiority and privilege.
5. Emotional Invalidation and Coercion
Although narcissists and gaslighters can be (but are not always) physically abusive, for the majority of their victims, emotional suffering is where the damage is most painfully felt. Both narcissists and gaslighters enjoy spreading and arousing negative emotions in order to feel powerful, and keep you insecure and off-balance. They habitually invalidate others’ thoughts, feelings, and priorities, showing little remorse for causing people in their lives pain. They often blame their victims for having caused their own victimization (“You wouldn’t get yelled at if you weren’t so stupid!”).
In addition, many narcissists and gaslighters have unpredictable mood swings and are prone to emotional drama — you never know what might displease them and set them off. They become upset at any signs of independence and self-affirmation (“Who do you think you are!?”). They turn agitated if you disagree with their views or fail to meet their expectations. As mentioned earlier, they are sensitive to criticism, but quick to judge others. By keeping you down and making you feel inferior, they boost their fragile ego, and feel more reassured about themselves.
6. Manipulation: The Use or Control of Others as an Extension of Oneself
Both narcissists and gaslighters have a tendency to make decisions for others to suit their own agenda. Narcissists may use their romantic partner, child, family, friend, or colleague to meet unreasonable self-serving needs, fulfill unrealized dreams, or cover-up weaknesses and shortcomings. Narcissists are also fond of using guilt, blame, and victimhood as manipulative devices.
Gaslighters conduct psychological manipulation toward individuals and groups through persistent distortion of the truth, with the intention of causing their victims to question themselves and feel less confident. In personal and/or professional environments, they manipulate by micromanaging (controlling) relationships, including telling others how they should think, feel, and behave under the gaslighter’s unreasonable restrictions and scrutiny. They often become critical, angry, intimidating, and/or hostile toward those who fail to bow down to their directives. Gaslighter manipulation is often highly aggressive, with punitive measures (tangible or psychological) executed toward those who fail to recognize and obey their self-perceived authority.
Perhaps the biggest distinction between narcissists and gaslighters is that narcissists use and exploit, and gaslighters dominate and control. While the narcissist does so to compensate for a desperate sense of deficiency (of being unloved as the real self), the gaslighter does so to hide their ever-present insecurity (of being powerless and losing control). Both of these pathological types betray an inability and/or unwillingness to relate to people genuinely and equitably as human beings. They become “special” and “superior” by being less human and by de-humanizing others.
In the worst-case scenario, some individuals possess traits of both narcissism and gaslighting. This is a highly toxic and destructive combination of vanity, manipulation, bullying, and abuse — all unleashed in order to compensate for the perpetrator’s deep-seated sense of inadequacy and fear.
Again, the above list is very important.
Characteristics of an abuse victim:
Although there is no specific type of person who is more likely to be abused, there are abuse victim characteristics which people in an abusive relationship tend to have in common or display. These can include:
Low self esteem
Emotional and economic dependency
Continued faith and hope abuser will “grow up”
Stress disorders and/or psychosomatic complaints
Accepts blame and guilt for violence or abuse
Socially isolated, eg avoids social interaction, never seems to be alone
Believes social myths about battering
Believes in stereotypical gender roles
Has poor self image
Contemplates or attempts suicide, or self-harms
Participation in pecking-order battering
Appears nervous or anxious
May defend any criticism of abuser
May have repeatedly left, or considered leaving the relationship
Ok, now that we have those laid out, we will proceed into the nitty gritty pieces of the relationship.
Take a look at these pictures first, and compare Johnny Depp to the above list of victim characteristics.
In any of these pictures, does Amber Heard honestly look like an abuse victim?
No. She looks very confident, very center-of-attention, very controlling, and very dominant. All key traits of a narcissistic abuser.
Does Johnny Depp look like an abuser?
No. He looks like a victim. Poor appearance, obvious submissiveness, depression…the list goes on. Anyone who has ever seen a victim of abuse can very clearly see that Depp was the victim here, not Heard.
Next, I want to discuss something that many Heard defenders conveniently overlook.
Amber Heard hit her ‘abuser’ on camera.
Let me repeat that. Amber Heard hit her ‘abuser’ on camera. She physically struck her ‘abuser’ on camera, and not only did she do this, she seemed to have no fear afterwards, no anxiety, no ‘oh shit I just hit the man who beats me up’ reaction. Nothing.
Notice in the video that she seems very aggressive and rude. Also notice, again, that she hits her ‘abuser’. She hits him again a little later in the episode after the car is revealed.
SHE. HIT. HER. ‘ABUSER’.
What kind of abuse victim hits her ‘abuser’, and then continues smiling and laughing? Answer: none.
Heard was also reported many times to be very controlling and possessive over Depp at public events. One such incident happened at a Black Mass event:
Johnny started talking to an unknown female, and Amber got pissed. Take another look at the list of narcissistic traits. You will notice jealousy as one of them.
Another exhibit of Amber’s behavior during the relationship is this:
Does this look like an abuse victim to you? Another similar piece of…behavior that I will not link or show here is a video that was evidently taken from her phone. It depicted her rolling around on a bed nude begging Depp to come home, saying he ‘belonged’ with her’ and to look at ‘what he was missing’.
But she is an ‘abuse victim’. Right.
The dog smuggling.
This incident is squarely placed on Amber Heard’s shoulders. She faced a large fine and up to 10 years in jail. This is important to remember, because one of the abuse incidents she cited in her court declaration happened directly after she found out her potential consequences. I will come back to that later.
However, Depp took the fall for it.Because as a victim of abuse, he felt that he had to support his abuser.
In the end, Heard plead guilty to falsifying documents, and was given a slap on the wrist. (Note: If it had been Depp that did this, the media would still be talking about it.)
From this point on, I will be coming back to several incidents that happened during the relationship that were referenced during the divorce. Otherwise, everything will be during the divorce and afterward.
After only being married for 15 months, Amber Heard filed for divorce from Johnny Depp on May 23rd, 2016.
Heard listed the reason for her divorce as ‘irreconcilable differences’. She did not list or mention any abuse allegations.
This, readers, is a letter sent by Samantha Spector to Depp’s legal team. It is a veiled extortion letter in which Spector, on behalf of Amber Heard, demands that Depp give Heard three condos that he continue to pay for, compensation for all of Heard’s legal fees, a Range Rover, and 50,000 in spousal support. Spector states that she ‘hopes they can remain out of the public eye in the basis of working out solutions’.
Translation: Agree to this shit or Amber Heard is going to sell her allegations and photos to every rag that will take them. Which is, evidently, People Magazine.
This came out as soon as Depp refused (because he did refuse to give Heard anything) to give into Heard’s demands. If you look closely, you will notice that the front of the magazine has ‘Exclusive Photo’ in the fine print. It says when this injury apparently occurred (‘last December’). This is important, because Heard cited this incident (but strangely refused to give a specific date) as the ‘worst beating of her life’.
These allegations came out, and then Heard filed for a temporary restraining order, complete with declarations submitted by iO Tillet Wright, and Raquel Pennington (both of whom had* or were currently living in Johnny’s penthouses that Heard asked for in the extortion letter). Heard was denied a permanent restraining order.
* iO had lived in one of the penthouses until sometime in 2015.
These declarations describe the incident on May 21st, where Depp allegedly threw a cell phone at Heard’s face. iO Tillet Wright called the police. The police arrived at the residence, and examined both Heard and the property. They found nothing. No injuries on Heard, and no damage. Heard told them “nothing” happened, and she refused to file a police report. They left this:
There are several pictures of Heard after this incident, and a video of Heard driving to Coachella a few days after the incident:
There are two more important incidents that Heard, Wright, and Pennington reference in their court documents. You can learn about them in this video, which also heavily questions the truth behind iO Tillet Wright’s claims:
Sometime around August 16th, Amber Heard dropped her abuse allegations with prejudice. If you paid attention to the list of definitions above, you would have noticed that this means she can never file this claim again.
JOHNNY DEPP AND AMBER HEARD NEVER SETTLED THE ABUSE CASE. IT WAS DROPPED. THEY SETTLED THE DIVORCE CASE. JOHNNY DEPP DID. NOT. PAY AMBER HEARD OFF. LINK.
To learn about what a person is entitled to in a California divorce, see this link:
Upon learning what she was going to get from the divorce, Amber Heard was accused of being in it for the money. She immediately pledged to donate all seven million to the ACLU and Children’s Hospital Los Angeles.
However, Depp tried to do this first, in Heard’s name. Heard didn’t like that, so she tried to ask for double the amount she was initially going to get: 14 million.Link.
Now, let’s look at Depp’s side.
It is important to mention that the ONLY time Depp spoke out about the allegations or the divorce was his initial statement:
A short statement given through his representative to Us Weekly on May 26 that said: “Given the brevity of this marriage and the most recent and tragic loss of his mother, Johnny will not respond to any of the salacious false stories, gossip, misinformation, and lies about his personal life. Hopefully the dissolution of this short marriage will be resolved quickly.”
Besides this, Johnny Depp didNOTHINGpublicly. Heard is the one that constantly dragged his name through the mud.
This account is COMPLETELY different than the account given by iO Tillet Wright and Raquel Pennington.
Here is also a list of notable people that have supported Depp:
Lady Gaga, Jada Pinkett Smith, Jerry Bruckheimer, Marilyn Manson, Joe Perry, Alice Cooper, Orlando Bloom, Keira Knightley, Ellen Degeneres, J.K. Rowling (more on her in a moment), the Fantastic Beasts cast, the Black Mass cast, Judy Dench, Daisy Ridley, Emma Watson….
In the advanced age of motor vehicles, super computers, mood rings, Tumblr, multi-colored ketchup, open-heart surgery, cloning, Area 51, Keeping Up With The Kardashians, a reboot of…fucking everything, smartphones, mobile games, VR, J.K. Rowling, the Roomba, Clap On/Clap Off, Morgan Freeman’s ‘God’, the modern justice system, Facebook, Snapple, kids eating Tide Pods, SJW’s, crazy billionaires trying to rebuild the Titanic, and SPAM…one would be mildly confused on how a clusterfuck of an article like:
His franchise is ‘Fantastic,’ but is Johnny Depp a beast in real life?
…could possibly be written into existence.
But it only takes a person skimming over this tragic use of the English language to understand.
Clearly, despite all of the advantages in the first world, all of the resources at her disposal, that funny thing in her head called a brain (though I am still uncertain if she has one)…Sara Stewart can’t even use fucking Google properly.
So. With that being said, I am going to disassemble this failure, and explain every single thing that is fucking wrong with it.
And…for quite a bit of this explanation, I am going to use…wait for it…
…Moving on. Unless she didn’t understand any of that (probably didn’t). Don’t worry Sara, I will reiterate later.
How is Johnny Depp a hot mess? Please explain this to me. Because he had millions of dollars stolen from him? Because his wife was abusing him? Because…he is an actor? He has more money than you? He is a…oh, yeah, I forgot, he is a rich white man. THAT must be it.
But a nagging question stands: How do you sell a beloved blockbuster that features — some would say — a real-life monster? You minimize him on posters, for starters: One prominent ad features Depp facing squarely away from the camera, while another relegates him to a corner.
I could write the rest of this blog post like this:
…and it still wouldn’t adequately explain the fucking raging frustration I experienced reading that paragraph. First of all, the only goddamn people that have this ‘nagging question’ are the people that are incapable of critical thinking and operate on the popular outrage topic for clicks and fame.
Second of all, how absolutely fucking dare you call him a monster? How dare you call him that? And how dare you insinuate that the director, producer, AUTHOR, cast-mates, and fans aren’t 100% comfortable and happy with his inclusion in the franchise?
(By the way, by fans, I don’t mean the ‘fans’ that were whining and moaning on Twitter about how Harry Potter belonged to them now because J.K. Rowling had betrayed them. They aren’t fans.)
There is no subliminal anti-Depp going on here. His placement on the posters means fucking nothing. You’re reaching. Hard.
When the AUTHOR, the DIRECTOR, the PRODUCER, the CAST, and the FANS have all come forward supporting him as Grindelwald, the only people left to scratch their empty fucking heads about why such a ‘monster’ could be included in a beloved franchise are PEOPLE LIKE YOU.
The people that failed to pick up even a shred of the truth, the truth that says that Johnny Depp is innocent.
I will now provide the massive fucking pile of evidence that proves it, since you so gloriously failed to take five goddamn seconds to Google it.
First, Heard’s letter, sent by Samantha Spector, to Johnny Depp’s legal team:
Since I very much doubt you are smart enough to understand what this letter means, Sara, I will explain. In this letter, Samantha Spector, at the request of Amber Heard, is demanding that Johnny Depp agree to the demands of 50,000 a month in spousal support, three condominiums (all three continued to be paid for by Johnny Depp), a Range Rover, and compensation for her legal fees.
Then, Spector blatantly states that she ‘hopes they can work out a mutually acceptable short and long term solution out of the public eye’.
Translation: If you don’t do what we say, we’re going public.
What kind of domestic abuse victim demands all of this shit from her abuser? Answer: none.
This, Sara, is a good chunk of Johnny Depp’s witness list. Take note of who, precisely, is on this list. Oh, a funny little person called a POLICE OFFICER. Depp also included Heard’s makeup artist on the list.
I will now list some facts for you:
Amber Heard did not claim abuse right away in the divorce. She listed irreconcilable differences as the reason for her filing.
Amber Heard plead guilty to domestic violence. Amber Heard hit Tasya Van Ree.
Tasya Van Ree did not defend Amber Heard until seven years AFTER the incident.
In 2016, Tasya Van Ree accused the arresting officer of homophobia.
The arresting officer is a gay woman.
Johnny Depp has never admitted to physical abuse of Amber Heard. He has always denied it.
Johnny Depp has never physically abused a woman.
Johnny Depp never settled an abuse case. The abuse case was dropped. They settled the DIVORCE case.
Johnny Depp did not pay Amber Heard off.
Amber Heard did not file a police report.
Johnny Depp is suing the Sun for defamation, and he is doing so because the Sun went after J.K. Rowling.
Johnny Depp is not a “wife-beater”.
Now, I will provide for you the court documents that Johnny Depp submitted to court in TWO THOUSAND AND SIXTEEN.
You can’t completely obscure the guy who provides the meat of your film’s plot, though, and Warner Bros. finally dispatched Depp to talk with the softball-lobbing Entertainment Weekly last month.
…So, now you are not only saying that Johnny Depp doesn’t deserve the chance to defend himself, but you are also saying that he only spoke to EW because Warner Bros. forced him to. It is beyond me how people like you can make this shit up.
JOHNNY DEPP HAS THE RIGHT TO DEFEND HIMSELF.
JOHNNY DEPP HAS THE RIGHT TO DEFEND HIMSELF.
JOHNNY DEPP HAS THE RIGHT TO DEFEND HIMSELF.
The star expressed vague sympathy for those around him but ultimately — as so many other men accused of wrongdoings in the past year have done — strongly denied any personal responsibility: “I felt bad for J.K. having to field all these various feelings from people out there . . . But . . . the fact remains I was falsely accused . . . J.K. has seen the evidence and therefore knows I was falsely accused, and that’s why she has publicly supported me.”
HE STRONGLY DENIED PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY BECAUSE HE HAS NOTHING TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR. HE DIDN’T FUCKING DO ANYTHING. AMBER HEARD FALSELY ACCUSED HIM OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, AND THEN PEOPLE LIKE YOU CONTINUE TO SPREAD HER BLATANT LIES BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO GODDAMN SHAME.
What really astounds me is that you click-hungry journalists openly admit in your articles that your claims are baseless.
“APPARENTLY”…”ALLEGED”…”ACCUSED”…yet, you have no fucking grasp of what these words mean. You can’t write an article about an unproven fact, and call it a proven fact. Also, how is the lawsuit relevant to this article AT ALL?
And he didn’t menace anyone in that video. It was filmed in his private home (not theirs) without his knowledge, and she was gas lighting him. The only one who committed any wrongdoing in that video is AMBER HEARD.
He has shown up to recent gigs with his band, Hollywood Vampires, looking notably wild-eyed and gaunt, and is even being sued by two of his own bodyguards for unpaid wages and exposing them to unsafe working conditions.
Again, if you would use Google for two fucking seconds:
You would find that:
There is nothing fucking wrong with Johnny Depp.
Depp’s participation in the sequel generated controversy right from the start, with incensed fans even mounting petitions asking the studio to recast him, but Warner Bros. and Rowling both stuck by their choice, with the author saying last Decemberthat “the filmmakers and I are not only comfortable sticking with our original casting, but genuinely happy to have Johnny playing a major character in the movies.”
Don’t you think that an intelligent person like J.K. Rowling, who, by the way, is also a victim of domestic violence, would be able to tell the difference between an innocent and a guilty man? She saw his evidence. She knows he is innocent, and furthermore, she knows that he was the victim.
A train wreck. What about him is a train wreck? I am fairly certain he can, at least, write a better fucking article than you ever could. Also, there is no confirmation that he was ever dropped from PotC.
Once a heartthrob, then a quirky darling of director Tim Burton, he’s now become a caricatured collection of leather bracelets, slurred speech and thinly veiled hostility to anyone who doesn’t support him.
He literally didn’t say a fucking word about the allegations until the Sun newspaper called him a wife beater. Not a fucking word. So I am really confused about who this ‘thinly veiled hostility’ was aimed at.
Given the kind of global fanbase Rowling enjoys, it’s hard to imagine a downplayed, “Billionaire Boys Club” scenario (the Kevin Spacey-starring film, which came out this August, earned a whopping $126 on its opening day) for this “Fantastic” release — but it’s also time for the industry to think about showing the unrepentant Depp the door.
No. Your boss needs to show you the door for writing a slanderous article about a lie perpetuated by an abusive narcissistic woman, fueled by your faux feminist idea that all men are evil.
The New York Post ought to be ashamed of themselves for allowing this kind of journalistic conduct on their website, as this goes against the very principles of journalism. Bring the truth to the people. Instead, Sara Stewart is aiding in the mass psychological abuse of an innocent man that already had to endure physical abuse from Amber Heard, and she is doing so without care or remorse for her actions.
To answer my original question, is Sara Stewart a Journalist?
No. She is an embarrassment.
Also, for those wanting to look at the article, I have provided screenshots below. Please do not Google the article, or follow any links to the article. We do not want the article, its publisher, or its writer to gain any more audience on their platform.
…Let’s start with when I became connected to Johnny. It’s quite a funny story, and probably not what you expect.
Rewinding back to 15-year-old me; when MySpace was still a thing, before Britney Spears had her meltdown, and a sequel to a little known film called Curse of the Black Pearl was coming out: 2006.
In between blasting Eminem like a normal shut-in-my-room recluse mad at the world and being convinced that everyone was against me, I was eagerly anticipating Dead Man’s Chest.
But here is the twist.
Between my stepsister (at the time) and I, we decided among ourselves which man was ‘ours’…a normal activity for teenage girls to undertake apparently, because we had done the same thing with every rapper under the sun.
This is where it gets a little…shameful. It was a dark time in my life…
[Deep breath.] I did not pick Johnny.
At least, for about five minutes I didn’t pick Johnny. I picked Orlando, or more specifically, I picked Will Turner. Then…I don’t know if Fate reached into my head and slapped me, or if I just experienced an enlightenment…whichever it was, I passed Will Turner onto her and declared Captain Jack Sparrow as mine.
Two days later, I was cutting out every single goddamn magazine clipping I could find of Johnny. I would go into thrift stores and buy all of their gossip magazines to find clippings of Johnny. I would search the T-shirt racks for Johnny shirts. I would stare at Jack’s poster at Target for a good five minutes. I covered my wall in Johnny posters. I had notebooks and folders and pins and purses of Johnny.
I might have been a fan at that point.
It all really started with Jack. I distinctly remember going to the theater to see DMC…sprinting into the building already imagining what was going to happen, especially since the trailer had painted a romance between Jack and Elizabeth [Sad giggle].
Long story short, when I left the theater, I felt like my fucking dog had died. I was so…shell shocked. I assume many who read this will know what produced this reaction.
That scene. THE scene. More specifically, the kiss.
I am still a hardcore (when I say hardcore, I fucking mean hardcore) Sparrabeth shipper, and could probably fill a library of novels with my headcanons, ideas, theories, thoughts, and fanfics of them. There would be absolutely no smut at all though. I would never write smut……….I hope none of you believed that.
Anyway, that scene literally shooketh me. I was in a daze for like two days. TWO DAYS. It was all I could think about. I thought about it in the shower. I thought about it on the school bus. I thought about it in class. I dreamed about it. I wrote about it.
And then I recovered by watching every Johnny movie I could get my hands on. As it turns out, the next one on the list was Secret Window. I can safely say that I developed a love for Mort’s bed (or couch, rather) hair, his robe, and his constant pissy expression. I watched SW over and over and over and over…and over. Then I watched Nightmare on Elm Street, then 21 Jumpstreet, then Sleepy Hollow, then Blow (a lot of Blow), then Don Juan, then Edward…etc.
Then when I got DMC on DVD, I watched that over and over and over and over and over. Like…a lot. I could actually recite that entire film from memory at this point. No joke. Well…maybe not the Will scenes, because I skipped them. Because fuck Will.
I am not going to get into it here (much) but I will just say that AWE was a colossal disappointment for me, and the following two films weren’t much better (worse actually). (Though, I will take Trilogy Jack over 4&5 Jack any day of the week.)
As I got older, my obsessive fanship of Johnny turned into more of respect thing. I felt him to be very intelligent, and very…complex. An interesting person, intellectually attractive…and I felt him to be very similar to me.
Fast-forward to 2016…I was sitting at my computer, a day or so after hearing about his divorce, and then suddenly…that.
The abuse allegations.
Now, between 2014 and 2016, Johnny had kind of…not necessarily dropped off of my radar, but sort of faded into the background. I still followed him, but had focused on other things (namely a sudden obsession with Severus Snape)…
…but the second I saw the story about Heard’s claims…I doubted it. I just…did. Something just didn’t fit. I didn’t outright not believe her, but I kind of went…hmmm. So I followed the case. Closely. Very closely.
At this juncture, I will give a little more background on myself. I have mentioned it several times before, but I have a degree in Rhetoric and Composition, with a large amount of self-taught psychology knowledge, and I never follow group agreement. Ever. I always, always, form my own opinion on something first. I am trained in analyzing arguments down to the most minute detail, I am trained in examining the counter arguments, I am trained in turning off bias, and I am trained in the meticulous examination of research, circumstance, behavior, evidence, and history.
The longer the case went on, the clearer it became to me that Heard was lying. I don’t give a shit about gender or statistics or anything when it comes to individual cases, because individual cases deal with the individuals in the case.
Everything she did, everything that her team did…all of the holes in her story, the people that stood to benefit from her lies…how other people can’t see she is a liar is absolutely beyond me.
But anyways, besides all of that, this entire post is meant to be about how Johnny’s book came to be.
I will start by talking about how it almost didn’t come to be.
I got the idea…actually while managing a busy shift at my previous job (McDonald’s)…I was literally bagging up a Big Mac meal when the thought popped into my head…
‘Hey, it would be pretty cool to make a scrapbook for Johnny to show him he has support.’
At this point, I should mention a habit of mine, which is to get grand ideas and get really excited about them…and then give up before I even start.
But this time, I didn’t. I got home and wrote up a Tumblr post about my idea…submissions I would like to get, the time frame, etc. etc. I shared it with Lani when it was finished, and then published it.
And nothing happened, at least…not really. I got one or two submissions that first week, but it was very slow. I…kind of expected that to happen, to be honest, because I was so used to being ignored. I was also kind of a nobody in the fandom at the time (I am still kind of a nobody), so I didn’t really foresee the book being even remotely a success. But I wanted to try anyway.
I started gathering materials once I got a few more submissions. I think by the time I bought the binder, I had about 10.
I told Lani that if I didn’t start getting more submissions, it was going to turn into a Christmas present rather than a birthday present. She suggested that I share the post on Twitter. Then things started happening.
By the time I closed the submissions, I had about…40.
The book was never about me…it was never about my gain…despite how some people have suggested otherwise. One person (I will touch on this in a different post) also seemed to drift away from me once I started the book, and I eventually discovered that she thought I was blinded by bias and incapable of seeing JD’s flaws…I guess.
It was all about Johnny. I even had one person tell me that I shouldn’t make a book, right at the beginning. They said that maybe it wasn’t a good idea because he would never have the time to read it…but that was the entire reason I wanted to put all of the fan submissions into a book…so that they would all be in one place for him to come back to whenever he wanted.
To break this up a bit, I am going to include some of the things I wrote in the book. This is a bit from the Film page:
In the olden days, storytellers wove images…vivid, full of life, color, emotion…into their listener’s minds; they placed them on top of snowy mountains or in the heart of the most lush jungle. Their audience laughed, gasped, screamed, cried, and wondered; they flew away from the banality and the mundane, and flew into a new world where they could experience that which would not be possible in their wildest dreams.
Now, we have film, built upon years and years of tales and stories spun by talented minds, only the images are no longer just in the mind, but on the screen.
I just wanted the book to be really special to him, you know? I wanted it to be something that he could connect with beyond the fan submissions…and I like to think that I accomplished that. I also wanted to treat the submissions each very carefully…I put a lot of effort into making sure that each page matched the person.
Originally, I had a few additional pages planned, which I can talk about. I wanted to make a page that was about the word ‘shit’ (his favorite curse word), and I even ordered a ‘shit’ patch to put on the page. I was going to fill the page with various film and literary quotes that used the word shit, and some of his quotes if I could find some.
I also wanted to have a page talking about this photograph:
I planned to have a picture of Farrah Fawcett next to it with one of those “Kinda looks like” sort of things…
I also wanted to give the Vampires their own separate page…but that didn’t end up happening. I ended up just adding them to the ‘Rock’ page later in the book. Here is a bit from the first Music page I had:
From the simple whistle of the wind to the humming of cavemen, to the Greek Seikilos Epitaph, to the Native American hand drum, the angelic harmony of a church choir, the sublime song of the violin, the soul-lifting notes of trumpets, bagpipes, and harps…then comes the riffs of the guitar, a balm for the adventurous spirit…the rumble of the bass, the souring soul voice, the growl of a rocker…Aretha, Michael, Metallica, Bruce D. Chuck Berry, Steve Perry, Beethoven, Bach, Mozart, Zimmer, Gaga, Alice, Manson…music is like air…it became one with the Earth from the beginning, and we cannot know Earth or life without it.
Here is a bit from the Letters Intro page:
Language, as a visual representation, could completely populate a planet having the same dimensions as Earth if each person represented a word, linguistic rule, letter, phrase, pronunciation, accent, slang term, BAD words, all in 6,500 spoken languages. The English language alone contains 1,025,109 words. So take that and multiply it roughly by 6,000. The result is 6,150,654 words in the entire linguistic tree. That is 6 billion words. Granted, in English, especially, not all of the words are used all of the time. In fact, currently, only about 117,000 words are in use.
In the next 21 pages, your relatives use some of those words to tell you just how great you are.
I also included throughout the book many quotes from various people…musicians, authors…others. Like I mentioned, I wanted the book to connect with Johnny on a lot of levels.
I started the book in January of this year, and finished on May 7th. I shipped it to Lani after a stressful visit to the post office (it ended up costing a lot more than I wanted to spend to ship)…but it made it to her.
So…I got a DM from her on May 17th (if I remember correctly)…so here’s the thing. When she told me that she was going to hand the book off, she told me she was going to hand it off to “his people”.
What she didn’t tell me was that she was going to put it directly in his hands, and then he was going to look at it while pictures were being taken.
So imagine my reaction when she DM’ed me and told me that she had literally just given it to him.
I was actually shaking, guys. I was in shock. Johnny Fucking Depp had touched something I had in my hands a week earlier.
Honestly, I still have trouble believing it. It just doesn’t seem real, it doesn’t seem like something that actually happened to me, that could happen to me.
And I can’t thank the people who contributed enough, I can’t thank Lani enough…and I can’t thank Johnny enough for being the angel he is.
This book was made to make him happy, and continue making him happy every time he looks at it, and I hope that’s what it did.